u been very stress up and troubled these days... and u been going to clubbing these days... ppl are blaming u not taking care of her much and u dun spend time with her.. i noe cos of her u been blame so much for things u dun mean it. i noe u are still young and u wanna have ur times with ur fren blahblah.. u also wanna be like any other 19 going club drinking play all tt.. but cos of her, ppl seeing u playing too much blame u for not spending time with her... shyt i forget tt word but nvm... i noe u didnt can le.. u still loves her alot.

dun ever do something im sure u will regret... i noe u dun like me saying this but i still have to say.. u can balance ur time between hers and yours, dun have to go to the extend of giving up her. she just a kid... can u bear to let her call other mom? can u bear to see her suffer(well u nv noe), can u bear to see her unable to see u first thing when she wakes up? can u bear to see a life being with u for 7months, inside u for 8-9month, someone so close to u not by ur side? well...

every problem have solutions, many solutions, dun so fast go into a decision before u looked at all de solutions... i noe ur sis been harsh on u, but she is just caring for u... let solve this tgt ok? after tt i can just be out of ur life for good... i dun wan to see u one day wake up and couldnt find her and u start to panic and think, 'oh ya i gave up on her.'

give her a chance and urself a chance...

sms me after u see this please?
always there.

its all happen in 2004? when i was in sec 3 and her sec 1! twins... didnt realise and rmb how i met her until my SCOUT tells me tt sec 1 got a twins very cute... den i was like really mehx? where! and i of cos after sch will see de la.. LOL.. i think i got notice for abit la.. den den den

i rmb once was at bball court playing and someone shouted to me tt the twins coming! ohohoh.. haha.. nice.. must look smart blahblah but i think didnt see me =.= but nvm they walk out crossed the road and to the bus stop.. den i was like standing at the vball court watching and like an idiot jumping and shouting cos i noe they cant hear. LOL damn timid la dey...

nvm so.. hmmm one day i think in class nth to den i was talking to my kakak(elder sis) amalina... (not exact but around there la)

me: kakak netball got a twins rite?
ama: ya y lehx? u like them ar!?
me: wa so obvious?
ama: haiya u tt time tell me a gal from eldds u also like den vball also like this one confirm de la
me: haha... i wanna noe her lehx how ar? u got her number anot?
ama: dun have la but i can help u ask la!
me: if she dun give how?
ama: den no choice lor. if not i pass her ur number la den see she got call u anot.
me: haha can can.

(something like tt la during class i think cos teacher MC) LOL i dunno wat happen between them or how they talk it, ama only tell me she gave her my number le. LOL

* why min? same face ma ppl tell me but dif feel and she is more guai! LOL!

eh den wat happen.. oh i recieve de call tt night i think~ wooohoooo..
me: eh hello who is this?
min: are u teh?
me: ya u are?
min: did u ask someone to pass YOUR number to me?
me: STUNNED*

latter part forgot le but den like this we started to chat for awhile...

den i think i called too many times liao den sometimes qi will pick up den say wat " min, ur laogong call u le la" cos qi will tot her bf. LOL!

first time qi like tt told den i heard ma cos she shouted, haha den oh ok... happy* of cos den dunno when i think i got de date somewhere but yes we walked tgt.

for a month or so! she was helping at a bubbletea shop and i will go whenever i could.. and drink wat she made. sometimes her boss will treat me and got 1 time her boss drunk.. den come touch my face =.= i was instantly goosebump la.. meh de! LOL..

basketball with her group of frens... all ahbeng la.. i dunno de but just go la cos she there ma... bu fang xin her there also. LOL.

bought her a shirt from pureMILK lolx. cos i like the pink polo, wanna get for myself so get for her too on our 1 month ba i think. but hers is a round neck one and i dunno whether anot she wore it cos i think its a little too big, M size la LOL. at jurong point or something de if i not wrong.

think this is most of the things i can rmb ba... got more i can den add agn when i book out... continued---

den after awhile from the 1 month anniversary...i think i was having remedial on hols den i revieve her sms... "lets break ba i think we are not suitable!" (not exact but something like tt)

piang** shattered... at the bus stop outside wrs, beside field de... was crying on the way home.. den near my hse i hold on to the tears den into de room continue... i asked for a better reason but she nv give me but i noe the reason.. we belong to dif world.. her fren all smoke bengs at tt time and i was like so off la when went out with them... and so ya break out after 1 mnth plus.

ok checked the date was 5/10/2004 - 2/11/2004, so not even a month... so its an early anniveresary =.= NOT EVEN A MONTH ARE U KIDDING ME! =.=

didnt really contact but met a few times outside but i can never regconise which is which.. i see nv really reply me de confirm is qi. LOL well.. usually smiles and walk off le.

2009 november and before abit... manage to talk to her on msn and get her contact... she was with a guy tt time.. but we sms awhile and i rmb got a msg is in chinese saying " da bian dang fan, xiao bian dang tang" meaning big mealbox rice, small soup.. but chinese read like eat shyt like rice drink urine like soup! and some others chinese msg i cant rmb-ed

den stop for awhile den msg her agn saying she giving birth.. WTF... =.= but ok.. say wat i was like giving birth den the doc dun wan me to give birth den i think i go hospital in the morning dots dots... which i dun understand tt time but now i do le... filled this up later... and she didnt reply my sms after tt day she told me all this.

may2010 its my birthday.. i invited those i closer with de and of cos she is included.. msn-ed her no reply. fb no reply. sms her no reply and qi reply on my tag so i chg target.. asking if her sis chg her contact blahblah.. but she dun dare give cos she scare min will scold... den finally she replied in msn and gave me her contact...

15may2010 she did not came for my birthday which i tot she will cos she said if she is to she will bring a fren along.. i didnt call her all tt until like cutting cake time i sms-ed her and she said she had to settle her sis wedding, i think discussing thing so she nv come but nvm, call her later tt day den understand all this so i did not blame her.

16may2010 i asked her to let me go her hse see dion... well to see her too and i get to see them both for awhile.. an hr or so cos she going out... best birthday present le.. but i still demand a meal from her.. not anywhere else but made from her hands... anything also can but... LOL... oh she sent me home too =)

17may2010 i asked her yang me.. lol and 19may2010 i said i feed her and she say ok ah u feed me ah. LOL... buy she yang me de i must eat grass =.=

20may2010 i was in sispec and we chatted on the phone... telling me nov tt time she give birth things and all de others till she said she had a bf at tt time.. =.= but gonna break with him.. =) mood chg damn fast.. she duno how to break and i cant help too. and from tt day i working under her cos i have to greet her every morning, den i request for OT till goodnite and no sat sun off! LOL

21may2010 after book out i went her hse saying wanna use her wireless but of cos got other motives... itouch is secondary, primary is another things la... sit there for quite some times, played with dion abit den sit there watch tv =.= for a few hrs.. dunno wat to say much but still manage to come out some la... dun wanna leave at all but can see she is so tired so bo bian... saw her blog also got this guy and her msn or sms convo, i tot is another guy but appear to be de same one which is de one she breaking with. hmmm

after tt was all smsing till.. did anything happened? no we acted blur.

4jun2010 we went for a movie tgt mamaduke and i was drunk. she bought ice lemon tea for me saying drunk dun drink coke.. tho unclear but watever she said i still listen in. couple seat!!!~ =) LOL

6jun2010 she knock off and i meet her to walk home with her... she did all de talking if not v weird.. LOL but so fast the road.. should take a long detour la.. singapore road can make longer la. LOL she said she was going to meet her ex but nv cos she slp till nv hear the phone.

7jun2010 she met her perfect ex... =(

8jun2010 9+pm almost tears, ok la got but inside bunk got ppl see la.. so hold back but still come down abit after i was watching de " wo ai de ren " maple version which i posted before.

today 9jun2010 wanna meet her and see dion de but she was going drinking.. saw her fb " clubbing tonite?? " so think she is going drink ba. or club even.. dun get urself too drunk ba.. rest well and spend more time with dion la tho no time for me LOL! most imptly dun drunk ba =p

1july2010 this is de future but there is a movie coming out.. and i think i can get to watch it with her ba.. see her ba! no drunk this time. =p

and the stories continues to years 2050 and more... ~~~

was typing this sms but cannot la... wierd cos i in no position to ask u to do this!

u told me ur ex wanna meet u den u said u was tired and wanna slp so not meeting him, then u said he said he could come ur hse if u dun wanna go out and u said ok, then u said not sure if he is coming up cos he haven say anything...

watever it is, i dun wan u to meet him? well i cant say anything cos i was once ur ex too, if u were to not contact or something means i will be inside too. but i really dun like u to meet him but i dun wan tell u also la.. i mind! but haiya... contradicting... i also dunno wat i talking!

dunno wat to say or wat to tell u... just pour a pail of lemon juice and drown me ba! =(


haiz... this is so not rite but i cant help it... dots... going to sort things out... another matter this is...

goodnights...

been so long since i really blog.. becos everything could be done in fb... tag and shoutout! but now i got something to say but i cannot do it in fb.. and the only place i can do it? here!

im not good at words.. i cant say much if not i would have gotta de silver or golden bayonet.. but.. tt doesnt bother me cos im not so competitive in that... and this is not de main point. de main point is...

i dunno how to express myself.. but i like u and de small one... i wont say i love u cos i dunno if i can provide for u and even for myself i have doubt. im so lazy tt i dun even noe if i will get a job in future anot. as for now in army no choice, but at least i got tt little income... so let me acc u for a year or so... till i ord and during this time if u met someone nicer, more handsome, love u more and stuffs, den i will leave u in his care.. and wont disturb u i promise... i dunno if i really love u or just wan a company but i noe tt i wanna see u and dion well and good. i noe u dun feel anything for me but allow me to continue stay at ur side.. visit u and dion occasionally or something. this may just be de best and most unforgettable part of memories in my life!

read ur blog.. noe u are going thru some stuffs. law case and ur past.. wat past is past.. does it matter? i admit im not a nice guy also.. and i get turn on... but i wont force anything if u dun wan it, all i wan is able o hug u to bed, seeing u sound and safe.. and the small one smile! good enuff le.. cos i also dun have much time to acc u cos ns! little little things matters more!

i noe ur heart there is someone inside.. i just hope i dun go down too deep into this "frenship" well... seriously scare but.. try la hor!

as promise i will sms and wish u morning everyday and nites cos i insisted on working ot! =p at least i keep it till i ord-ed... i scare i cant and i scare u will feel annoy and dun reply me one day.. but before tt came.. i will continue doing it..

been listening to this song.. rang wo zhao gu ni! i wanna zhao gu u if not forever but at least now! but can i? i dunno! haiz

LASTLY! i wanna say no matter wat.. u wont be alone..

才刚说了再见 又想再见你一面
我知道这样有点明显
不知怎么遮掩 又传简讯给你了
我知道自己要什么了

但是正当我觉得自己在恋爱了
你却说你有男朋友了
但是正当我以为自己被你接受了
突然一切都幻灭了

你说你和男朋友不太开心 不想和他在一起
我又不能怂恿你去跟他说明
还得装做不关系你 听你说你和他之间的事情

想知道你和他的关系 又不能直接问你
只能从你的部落格看你写和他的亲密
还得装做没关系 一直的陪着你
是真的没关系 还是害怕失去你

好想一直陪着你 不做什么也没关系
不想再说再见 怕不会再见

so dead le this blog.. so post it here is de best cos no one will noe. haha.

ytd was a nights out at qy hse... with wj qy jon eddie and i told my parents i will not be coming back for the night... but den cos zh pangseh den short of 1 leg to mj which is de intended plan, jon played and omg i think i win too much.. LOL zhi mo 5 tai den later jon pa with my tiles on the floor zhong and baiban pong-ed and 2 flower and my inside was 2bei 2fa and 789bamboo... he pa one bei and i HU! xiao san yuan... and he stopped de game.. at nan feng only... ok la i also v good... nv ask them to pay... if not i won close to $20 le...

den after game stopped was discussing where to eat... den in the end till go home at 4am.. when we reach qy hse at 12.30... dots.. jon send us home... eddie first den me and i dunno de road to my hse and miss de exit so we turn 1 round to kranji den folo mrt track.. lol.

reached home my door was lock.. from inside... i called my mom and waked her up to open de door for me =.= disturb her slp... and she was sleeping in my room cos she was coughing, not feeling well and my dad slp will on aircon.. den till i came back, so she went to de living room and slp... felt damn guilty so i go out and ask her to slp in my room and she said this 不用紧 你去睡 去去 我睡这里就可以了... damn bad sia and so i let her slp in de living room alone...

slept till 12.30 check my phone... wa alot sms... all ask me where u posted to and here says it all

1.	You are posted to	SISPEC.
2.	Your vocation is	INF LDR.
3.	Your are to report to:	Pasir Laba Camp, BLK 276, RM #02-15.
	Reporting Date/Time:	21/12/2009 at 0800 - 0830 hrs.
	Person to report to:	Chief Clerk
	Contact Number:	64105597/5594/5533
	You are required to report in smart no.4 uniform (PES E recruits to be in No 3 uniform), except for those assigned to Police Force.
4.	Special Instruction:	Report to Pasir Laba Guardroom in Smart No 4 Uniform. No Camera Handphone, thumb-drives and MP3/MP4 are allowed. You are required to bring along your duffle bag/field pack complete with the SAF issued items given during BMT. You are expected to stay in.

TATA back to routined army life...

ok fast one...

same company as wayne aaron bengyong and some sec sch fren and 1 pri sch one...

me wayne same platoon some more..

cut short la... keep seeing them and have fun...

saw qy wj jason jon and more la inside... alot ppl inside...

one word to describe inside la HELL!

gonna pack my stuffs soon.
gonna removed my 3 earstuds soon.
gonna botak soon.
gonna be away from home for 2 weeks soon.
gonna shave off my beardy soon.

alot of gonna going to happen in the next 2 days... i wanna see me botak with 3 studs confirm look like ahbeng. lolx.

W/E it is.. its something i must go thru cos im born in sg...

boring.. my china game cannot play and i dun intend to give any of them my acct. and them means those china ppl cos i played this game alone... dun trust them... haha even tho they trust me and i hacked them...

boring.. blog hopping... afew i see and to my horror...
-STXY! =( got bf le sia... sad... before i go in ns let me see this. haiz... haha but still wish her happy la. i noe her feeling and so i dun really put anything into this frenship.

-ZHQ! =x? dunno wat is tt maybe song lyrics but like so sad. i tot she might have someone she likes. good lor.

-D! this one is see dao facebook in a relationship with... haiz. this one den got abit sad... happy awhile ago before seeing cos she come ask me take care in ns... well but i noe she meant it as a fren...

-G! ytd talked to her on msn. haha. kns say brb in the end go offline. asshole u... lolx. this one can scold cos she will nv be angry with me... well maybe... but haha. sure ok de..

well. i think me going into ns wont affect anyone ba... dun really talk in msn much the most dota afew with joel... he can solo alone also... my hse also wont affect ba... maybe save more eectricity on coms... and save rice... lol..

ohhh.... if my dismiss makes an impact on u... TELL ME! u can sms to find me in tekong. hahaha. means u like me... muahahah. den i wont be left on the shelf... hahaha. no GAYS please...

HAHA msn with huiqi and she say i look old. =.= go piak her.. still continuing sia she. anyhow...

tml got time i post one last one before i go slp... haha.