liking someone is tough.
liking someone who dun like u is tougher.
liking someone who dun like u and have a bf is toughest.

well and i belong to the last. lolx. sometimes i got the urge to say something out. but i was so so so very scare it didnt turn out the way i wan it to be. so i keep quiet. i dun dare to ask u out. dun dare to call u and i can only be a phone + com warrior where i sms u and i msn u which i wont see u face to face. i hate to deceive myself but yet i must do tt. maybe i will feel a little better about it.

they ask me not worried about u? i say no. u are not related to me in anyway so i dun have a rite to feel worried but deep down in my heart. its nodding its head vigorously. its something i can think but not do.

thinking of u everyday keeps me occupied. but the seat beside me on my way home is always empty. it lost ur present. its been empty thruout the journey and tts lasted for the past wk. i noe i dun have a reason for u to be beside me but its just seems something missing.

awkward feels my hearts. seeing this and that and yet i cant do anything. i cannot make u happy and i dunno wat to say to u. deep down actually i do. i have alot to say. do u wanna hear?

* u have a him, can i still think of u?
the words in my heart, do u wanna hear?
all those words. are struggling within.
every word is all my sincere saying.*

been telling myself. u happy jiu ok le. but do i really feel this way. when u are happy. will i be happy too? of cos im not. i have been lieing to myself. for the past many months. from last time to now. maybe if i go for osip in china or india and i dun see u for 6months. maybe i wont feel anything for u agn. maybe i made de wrong decision. maybe i did. but wat past cannot be chg.

i love u. can i love u? would u love me back? hmmm. still listening to the same song u told me nice and i first time feel its nice way 10months back. " er wo yi jing fen bu qing, ni shi you qing, hai shi cuo guo de ai qing " but i have made it clear. u are "you qing" now and is " cuo guo de ai qing"

ahtehx mood = contradicting

my fren he is so sad tt he go buy a packet of cigg and smoke 3 sticks and throw away the rest. he dun wanna be addicted. just troubled so u go smoking to free himself. =p