been so long since i really blog.. becos everything could be done in fb... tag and shoutout! but now i got something to say but i cannot do it in fb.. and the only place i can do it? here!

im not good at words.. i cant say much if not i would have gotta de silver or golden bayonet.. but.. tt doesnt bother me cos im not so competitive in that... and this is not de main point. de main point is...

i dunno how to express myself.. but i like u and de small one... i wont say i love u cos i dunno if i can provide for u and even for myself i have doubt. im so lazy tt i dun even noe if i will get a job in future anot. as for now in army no choice, but at least i got tt little income... so let me acc u for a year or so... till i ord and during this time if u met someone nicer, more handsome, love u more and stuffs, den i will leave u in his care.. and wont disturb u i promise... i dunno if i really love u or just wan a company but i noe tt i wanna see u and dion well and good. i noe u dun feel anything for me but allow me to continue stay at ur side.. visit u and dion occasionally or something. this may just be de best and most unforgettable part of memories in my life!

read ur blog.. noe u are going thru some stuffs. law case and ur past.. wat past is past.. does it matter? i admit im not a nice guy also.. and i get turn on... but i wont force anything if u dun wan it, all i wan is able o hug u to bed, seeing u sound and safe.. and the small one smile! good enuff le.. cos i also dun have much time to acc u cos ns! little little things matters more!

i noe ur heart there is someone inside.. i just hope i dun go down too deep into this "frenship" well... seriously scare but.. try la hor!

as promise i will sms and wish u morning everyday and nites cos i insisted on working ot! =p at least i keep it till i ord-ed... i scare i cant and i scare u will feel annoy and dun reply me one day.. but before tt came.. i will continue doing it..

been listening to this song.. rang wo zhao gu ni! i wanna zhao gu u if not forever but at least now! but can i? i dunno! haiz

LASTLY! i wanna say no matter wat.. u wont be alone..

才刚说了再见 又想再见你一面
我知道这样有点明显
不知怎么遮掩 又传简讯给你了
我知道自己要什么了

但是正当我觉得自己在恋爱了
你却说你有男朋友了
但是正当我以为自己被你接受了
突然一切都幻灭了

你说你和男朋友不太开心 不想和他在一起
我又不能怂恿你去跟他说明
还得装做不关系你 听你说你和他之间的事情

想知道你和他的关系 又不能直接问你
只能从你的部落格看你写和他的亲密
还得装做没关系 一直的陪着你
是真的没关系 还是害怕失去你

好想一直陪着你 不做什么也没关系
不想再说再见 怕不会再见

so dead le this blog.. so post it here is de best cos no one will noe. haha.