u been very stress up and troubled these days... and u been going to clubbing these days... ppl are blaming u not taking care of her much and u dun spend time with her.. i noe cos of her u been blame so much for things u dun mean it. i noe u are still young and u wanna have ur times with ur fren blahblah.. u also wanna be like any other 19 going club drinking play all tt.. but cos of her, ppl seeing u playing too much blame u for not spending time with her... shyt i forget tt word but nvm... i noe u didnt can le.. u still loves her alot.

dun ever do something im sure u will regret... i noe u dun like me saying this but i still have to say.. u can balance ur time between hers and yours, dun have to go to the extend of giving up her. she just a kid... can u bear to let her call other mom? can u bear to see her suffer(well u nv noe), can u bear to see her unable to see u first thing when she wakes up? can u bear to see a life being with u for 7months, inside u for 8-9month, someone so close to u not by ur side? well...

every problem have solutions, many solutions, dun so fast go into a decision before u looked at all de solutions... i noe ur sis been harsh on u, but she is just caring for u... let solve this tgt ok? after tt i can just be out of ur life for good... i dun wan to see u one day wake up and couldnt find her and u start to panic and think, 'oh ya i gave up on her.'

give her a chance and urself a chance...

sms me after u see this please?
always there.

its all happen in 2004? when i was in sec 3 and her sec 1! twins... didnt realise and rmb how i met her until my SCOUT tells me tt sec 1 got a twins very cute... den i was like really mehx? where! and i of cos after sch will see de la.. LOL.. i think i got notice for abit la.. den den den

i rmb once was at bball court playing and someone shouted to me tt the twins coming! ohohoh.. haha.. nice.. must look smart blahblah but i think didnt see me =.= but nvm they walk out crossed the road and to the bus stop.. den i was like standing at the vball court watching and like an idiot jumping and shouting cos i noe they cant hear. LOL damn timid la dey...

nvm so.. hmmm one day i think in class nth to den i was talking to my kakak(elder sis) amalina... (not exact but around there la)

me: kakak netball got a twins rite?
ama: ya y lehx? u like them ar!?
me: wa so obvious?
ama: haiya u tt time tell me a gal from eldds u also like den vball also like this one confirm de la
me: haha... i wanna noe her lehx how ar? u got her number anot?
ama: dun have la but i can help u ask la!
me: if she dun give how?
ama: den no choice lor. if not i pass her ur number la den see she got call u anot.
me: haha can can.

(something like tt la during class i think cos teacher MC) LOL i dunno wat happen between them or how they talk it, ama only tell me she gave her my number le. LOL

* why min? same face ma ppl tell me but dif feel and she is more guai! LOL!

eh den wat happen.. oh i recieve de call tt night i think~ wooohoooo..
me: eh hello who is this?
min: are u teh?
me: ya u are?
min: did u ask someone to pass YOUR number to me?
me: STUNNED*

latter part forgot le but den like this we started to chat for awhile...

den i think i called too many times liao den sometimes qi will pick up den say wat " min, ur laogong call u le la" cos qi will tot her bf. LOL!

first time qi like tt told den i heard ma cos she shouted, haha den oh ok... happy* of cos den dunno when i think i got de date somewhere but yes we walked tgt.

for a month or so! she was helping at a bubbletea shop and i will go whenever i could.. and drink wat she made. sometimes her boss will treat me and got 1 time her boss drunk.. den come touch my face =.= i was instantly goosebump la.. meh de! LOL..

basketball with her group of frens... all ahbeng la.. i dunno de but just go la cos she there ma... bu fang xin her there also. LOL.

bought her a shirt from pureMILK lolx. cos i like the pink polo, wanna get for myself so get for her too on our 1 month ba i think. but hers is a round neck one and i dunno whether anot she wore it cos i think its a little too big, M size la LOL. at jurong point or something de if i not wrong.

think this is most of the things i can rmb ba... got more i can den add agn when i book out... continued---

den after awhile from the 1 month anniversary...i think i was having remedial on hols den i revieve her sms... "lets break ba i think we are not suitable!" (not exact but something like tt)

piang** shattered... at the bus stop outside wrs, beside field de... was crying on the way home.. den near my hse i hold on to the tears den into de room continue... i asked for a better reason but she nv give me but i noe the reason.. we belong to dif world.. her fren all smoke bengs at tt time and i was like so off la when went out with them... and so ya break out after 1 mnth plus.

ok checked the date was 5/10/2004 - 2/11/2004, so not even a month... so its an early anniveresary =.= NOT EVEN A MONTH ARE U KIDDING ME! =.=

didnt really contact but met a few times outside but i can never regconise which is which.. i see nv really reply me de confirm is qi. LOL well.. usually smiles and walk off le.

2009 november and before abit... manage to talk to her on msn and get her contact... she was with a guy tt time.. but we sms awhile and i rmb got a msg is in chinese saying " da bian dang fan, xiao bian dang tang" meaning big mealbox rice, small soup.. but chinese read like eat shyt like rice drink urine like soup! and some others chinese msg i cant rmb-ed

den stop for awhile den msg her agn saying she giving birth.. WTF... =.= but ok.. say wat i was like giving birth den the doc dun wan me to give birth den i think i go hospital in the morning dots dots... which i dun understand tt time but now i do le... filled this up later... and she didnt reply my sms after tt day she told me all this.

may2010 its my birthday.. i invited those i closer with de and of cos she is included.. msn-ed her no reply. fb no reply. sms her no reply and qi reply on my tag so i chg target.. asking if her sis chg her contact blahblah.. but she dun dare give cos she scare min will scold... den finally she replied in msn and gave me her contact...

15may2010 she did not came for my birthday which i tot she will cos she said if she is to she will bring a fren along.. i didnt call her all tt until like cutting cake time i sms-ed her and she said she had to settle her sis wedding, i think discussing thing so she nv come but nvm, call her later tt day den understand all this so i did not blame her.

16may2010 i asked her to let me go her hse see dion... well to see her too and i get to see them both for awhile.. an hr or so cos she going out... best birthday present le.. but i still demand a meal from her.. not anywhere else but made from her hands... anything also can but... LOL... oh she sent me home too =)

17may2010 i asked her yang me.. lol and 19may2010 i said i feed her and she say ok ah u feed me ah. LOL... buy she yang me de i must eat grass =.=

20may2010 i was in sispec and we chatted on the phone... telling me nov tt time she give birth things and all de others till she said she had a bf at tt time.. =.= but gonna break with him.. =) mood chg damn fast.. she duno how to break and i cant help too. and from tt day i working under her cos i have to greet her every morning, den i request for OT till goodnite and no sat sun off! LOL

21may2010 after book out i went her hse saying wanna use her wireless but of cos got other motives... itouch is secondary, primary is another things la... sit there for quite some times, played with dion abit den sit there watch tv =.= for a few hrs.. dunno wat to say much but still manage to come out some la... dun wanna leave at all but can see she is so tired so bo bian... saw her blog also got this guy and her msn or sms convo, i tot is another guy but appear to be de same one which is de one she breaking with. hmmm

after tt was all smsing till.. did anything happened? no we acted blur.

4jun2010 we went for a movie tgt mamaduke and i was drunk. she bought ice lemon tea for me saying drunk dun drink coke.. tho unclear but watever she said i still listen in. couple seat!!!~ =) LOL

6jun2010 she knock off and i meet her to walk home with her... she did all de talking if not v weird.. LOL but so fast the road.. should take a long detour la.. singapore road can make longer la. LOL she said she was going to meet her ex but nv cos she slp till nv hear the phone.

7jun2010 she met her perfect ex... =(

8jun2010 9+pm almost tears, ok la got but inside bunk got ppl see la.. so hold back but still come down abit after i was watching de " wo ai de ren " maple version which i posted before.

today 9jun2010 wanna meet her and see dion de but she was going drinking.. saw her fb " clubbing tonite?? " so think she is going drink ba. or club even.. dun get urself too drunk ba.. rest well and spend more time with dion la tho no time for me LOL! most imptly dun drunk ba =p

1july2010 this is de future but there is a movie coming out.. and i think i can get to watch it with her ba.. see her ba! no drunk this time. =p

and the stories continues to years 2050 and more... ~~~

was typing this sms but cannot la... wierd cos i in no position to ask u to do this!

u told me ur ex wanna meet u den u said u was tired and wanna slp so not meeting him, then u said he said he could come ur hse if u dun wanna go out and u said ok, then u said not sure if he is coming up cos he haven say anything...

watever it is, i dun wan u to meet him? well i cant say anything cos i was once ur ex too, if u were to not contact or something means i will be inside too. but i really dun like u to meet him but i dun wan tell u also la.. i mind! but haiya... contradicting... i also dunno wat i talking!

dunno wat to say or wat to tell u... just pour a pail of lemon juice and drown me ba! =(


haiz... this is so not rite but i cant help it... dots... going to sort things out... another matter this is...

goodnights...